the things i carry

          In the fiction novel The Things They Carried, Tim O'Brien describes 5 things the men carry. carry is a verb with multiple meanings and interpretations. like the men in the novel, I carry 5 things with me at all times as well, a physical item, goals, relationships, personality and memories.

          the physical item I have with me at all times would be my phone. my phone is special and important to me because I look at it as much more than just a phone. I can use it for just about anything, games, communication, research, pictures, math, shopping, etc. I use it everyday and although many say they are ruining our generation, I disagree because I use it as a helpful tool in school, I'm able to communicate with my friends and family here or in other countries, and it captures all my big events. without my phone I think id be fine if I never knew what it was like with one. but in reality if I was without it I would just feel disconnected from the world, I would feel like I had no way to capture the moment nor research important things. my phone is something I carry with me at all times.

         I carry a goal with me at all times and it influences me daily. my goal is to be a successful student, wife and have a happy healthy family. the goal is little short term goals that in the end create my long term goal. at this point in time my goal is to do well in school and make good grades so that I get into a good college. this goal provides me guidance because it keeps me on track and helps remind me and encourage me to continue to do well in school because I know my long term goal is to be successful and have a family.

         I carry a relationship with me everyday that helps me  get through my life. My mom is an inspiration to me and everyday i look up to her and learn from her.  Shes important to me because she is my mom of course, but she works so hard for all that she does for our family and is always there for us and supports me every step of the way. If I'm struggling she is the person to help me out and can ease my pain. Also if i ever am mad with my sister, she makes me realize how grateful i am considering her brother was an alcohol Everyday i learn something new from her and she impacts my life. My relationship with my mom grows everyday and i carry it every day.

        I carry my personality with me everyday. three adjectives to describe myself would be that I'm free-spirited, kind, and adventurous. I want to be a person with a  bubbly personality and to always make people smile and be helpful to anyone in need. I feel as if people that don't know me think I'm shy and studious, but I feel as if people that really know me think I'm funny, caring and independent. my personality has changed so much in the past years and I feel as if now I'm finally confident with it and It impacts my life everyday because it plays a role in how I go about things and what I do daily. I carry my personality with me everyday.

         I carry a memory with me everyday that helps me become less selfish.  to this day this memory  has an impact on me. it was about 10 years ago and around Christmas, my mom felt as if my sister and I were being very selfish and rude about the whole Christmas thing and we were ruining the spirit by being bratty about the gifts we "couldn't live without" my mom decided to take my sister and I on a little trip down to the third ward. We drove down the streets and witnessed all the families and people, they were not like my family and i then realized that there are people that have it way worse than i do and i should've been grateful that i even was getting anything for Christmas. This memory has impacted me since that day and i carry it with me everyday and it helps me to realize that I'm grateful for everything in my life and it helps me be less selfish.  I carry this memory with me everyday.